Everyone was right, it all goes by much too fast. Cal is growing so fast that I feel somehow I’m missing it and it’s falling through the cracks of my fingers, like sand. Tuesday night when he was sleeping it hit me like a pitcher of cement – Cal won’t be my little bug forever. I was so relieved that the next day was Wednesday and I’d get to contemplate his pudgy feet and thigh rolls, memorize the sprouts on his head, and see him first thing after naps when he’s still so cuddly and full of coy smiles. I think in the past week he’s turned into something else, something more boy that baby.
I see myself kissing him nonstop – maybe I’m holding tight to this era when I get a free pass to smooch on him all day long. He’s agile, and so in control of his body now. Feet and hands are tools on his increasingly effective tool belt. He can roll so well that he stops mid roll to look up and smile. He can also spin like a pinwheel and inch forward.
He sucks his drool before it slides out of his mouth so his shirts are drier now. His thighs are so pudgy I need two hands to make a band around them. He can almost sit perfectly – well it’s always been perfect for me – what I mean is with less sudden falls. But many times, he’ll fall forward on purpose so he can suck on whatever’s in front of him – the floor, your shirt, the table. He also does this in my arms; he’ll reach out and grab the counter, lunging his weight forward as if he’s taking off from a runway. I hold on tight.
Over the weekend, he happily gnawed on the bottom of my ice cold water glass at Tazzina’s. He also really liked the plastic food container I gave him yesterday, clutching it for the longest time and chewing on its bottom. In the bath, he doesn’t care that he can’t swim, he leaps off my lap, flying after his stackable cups. Once he gets one, he wants the other one, and the cycle continues.
We actually visited a friend’s preschool class yesterday and it really felt like it’d be realistic if someday he went to school too. We watched circle time. Cal was intrigued with the other kids, them with him. They introduced themselves and shook his hand. One girl made him laugh repeatedly with her funny faces.
He surprises me everyday and makes me smile at least 10 times more than I did without him. I just keep telling myself to embrace the amazing life force that is Calvin and let go of my need to hang on. I'm just glad I don't have to let go tomorrow.
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